A while back, I commented in bean_dame's journal that I tried pot a few times many years ago, but it never did anything for me. In particular, it didn't make me less anxious, more creative, able to figure out things more easily, or anything like that.

Anyway, earlier today at work I was having some trouble figuring out how to do something. I had to think really slowly through the problem. It was adding to my anxiety from earlier in the day, when I found out that I had misunderstood some things that were discussed at a meeting about my current project. Eventually I was able to get a little bit done, so I feel somewhat relieved. But I'm concerned that this delay in progress is going to wipe out all of the good things I've done so far.

So I was thinking, would I take drugs in order to perform better in such situations? Probably not. In general, I'm averse to things that might be addictive. (I don't even like to take drugs when I'm sick. OTOH, I take vitamins religiously. Go figure.) Also, I'm concerned about possible side effects. What if it made me "quicker" mentally, but did something to my reflexes that caused me to have a car accident? Or what would I do if I developed a dependence on the drug, but couldn't get it, and wound up even worse off than before?