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A while back, I commented in bean_dame's journal that I tried pot a few times many years ago, but it never did anything for me. In particular, it didn't make me less anxious, more creative, able to figure out things more easily, or anything like that.

Anyway, earlier today at work I was having some trouble figuring out how to do something. I had to think really slowly through the problem. It was adding to my anxiety from earlier in the day, when I found out that I had misunderstood some things that were discussed at a meeting about my current project. Eventually I was able to get a little bit done, so I feel somewhat relieved. But I'm concerned that this delay in progress is going to wipe out all of the good things I've done so far.

So I was thinking, would I take drugs in order to perform better in such situations? Probably not. In general, I'm averse to things that might be addictive. (I don't even like to take drugs when I'm sick. OTOH, I take vitamins religiously. Go figure.) Also, I'm concerned about possible side effects. What if it made me "quicker" mentally, but did something to my reflexes that caused me to have a car accident? Or what would I do if I developed a dependence on the drug, but couldn't get it, and wound up even worse off than before?


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Jan. 27th, 2006 05:44 am (UTC)
I've never done drugs, but I'm not going to preach it and force my beliefs on others. It doesn't change my opinion of you either, because you are still a good person. I like hippies and the way they think except for their lifestyle. However, there are others that become affected negatively and turns bad, mean, and worse off. So don't become that.

However, recreationally and medically is better than being addicted. If it actually helps someone feel better than take it, but if it doesn't then don't. Is the benefits better than the costs aka side effects?
Jan. 28th, 2006 03:40 am (UTC)
I like hippies. :) I think I would have liked being a hippie if I'd been old enough during the 1960s and 1970s. At least I like some things that came from the hippie movement, such as the music, peace initiatives, etc.
Jan. 27th, 2006 09:48 am (UTC)
Pot made me paranoid far too frequently.

Caffeine makes me quicker mentally and physically and combats my depression and I definitely have a dependence on it.

I wonder what I am going to do if/when I no longer can get health insurance that covers my prescription meds.
Jan. 28th, 2006 03:46 am (UTC)
Hmmm ... doesn't really do that much for me. Perhaps it keeps me awake (somewhat). But I'm basing my experiences on drinking one 12 ounce can of Coke at lunch for the last couple of weeks. I don't take coffee or anything else that has more caffeine per serving.
Feb. 5th, 2006 09:57 am (UTC)
kid stuff
One twelve ounce can of coke a day does not a caffeine habit make. When you start talking of mainlining the stuff from the espresso 'bot, then we can talk brah. Nine to twelve shots a day is starting to get up there…
Feb. 5th, 2006 09:00 pm (UTC)
Re: kid stuff
You have a point there. Come to think of it, a fair amount of folks I've worked with make frequent espresso runs.
Feb. 5th, 2006 10:01 am (UTC)
The bean (caffeine) messes with my head, and I'm much clearer and feel better without it. Yes, it's psychoactive, and one may feel better for a short time with it, but I feel that in the long run that it's a net negative.
Jan. 27th, 2006 08:09 pm (UTC)
The difficulty lies in making the distinction between the drug making you perform better, and the drug making you feel as though you are performing better.

Guy on stage: The audience is really into this solo I'm playing!
Audience: Boy, is that guy stoned! He used to be so good before he started doing drugs.

Using music as an example, but I believe it's true for life in general.
Jan. 28th, 2006 03:37 am (UTC)
I know of the use of beta-blockers as a musical performance aid, but I've never heard of it used for something like improving the ability to solve a puzzle or a logic problem.
Feb. 5th, 2006 10:02 am (UTC)
I was given them to aid with job interviews.
Feb. 5th, 2006 08:45 pm (UTC)
I was given them to aid with job interviews.

This could be helpful as I had trouble with job interviews (especially the Google type).

Were you prescribed the beta-blockers by a doctor? Did you specifically ask for beta-blockers or did you just ask if your doctor could prescribe something for nervousness, anxiety, etc.? Were they helpful? Did you notice any negative side-effects?

What I've heard and read about the use of beta-blockers in the music industry tends to make me cautious of them, but I'd like to gather more information regardless.
Feb. 5th, 2006 09:32 pm (UTC)
My psych offered them up (as in he knows I'm healthy with good blood pressure) when I said I was going to be interviewing and was nervous about it. I didn't have to ask.

But yes, you should be able to ask your doc for a scrip for some (I had propranol) and they will take the edge off. However, as you may remember, I have sort of a flat emotional response to start with. The beta blockers turn me into a robot – and in some job interview situations, that's very bad.

Other big side-effect: they'll give you a limp willy for a week (plus or minus) afterwards. Plan your social life accordingly.

Some job interview situations are designed to make the candidate nervous! If they can't, they wonder WTF is wrong with you.
Feb. 7th, 2006 07:25 am (UTC)
Hmmm, well, not that I have much social (romantic) life these days, but that's not a price I'd be willing to pay right now.
Jan. 28th, 2006 10:00 pm (UTC)
I'm totally where you are with the drug-thing. I see vitamins as supplementing my body's needs. For example, B and C vitamins are water-soluble, and in stressful situations we use more of them, so I see nothing wrong with taking extra. I also rather strongly dislike not being in control of myself, which is why the whole recreational drug scene never appealed to me.

As for performance-enhancing or any other kinds of drugs, I'm leery of anything unless I know its side effects.
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