I noticed on Saturday afternoon after our performance that my throat was feeling somewhat closed and my neck muscles were feeling tight. This will definitely cause problems. I need to get more of a yawning feeling. I also need to get a bigger breath before each phrase, perhaps.
In return for the use of our rehearsal space, we did two services this morning, one at 9:30 am and the other at 11am. In the first service, my voice broke twice during my solo. However, my director said that it was the best she'd ever heard me. I was going to mention to her that I was feeling somewhat uneasy about my solo, but I didn't want to give her anything more to worry about, especially since we had another service to do. I was feeling a bit more relaxed during the next service, and was able to do an ok job on my solo. No voice breaks, although I could feel a bit of unevenness while singing the problem phrase.
I guess I have been feeling (along with everything else) a bit under pressure, especially because the big concerts are coming up. People are relying on me to hold down my part, and I don't want to disappoint anyone. Actually, I had a dream about this on Friday night. Our French guests from Albi were here and we were having a soiree. There is usually a lot of singing at such events. When Assou-Lézert performs Plenty Good Room, the solo is usually performed by a small group. In the dream, the small group was singing. I was feeling uneasy so I left the room. I don't remember the rest of the details, but I know that they would like to do the solo in the joint concert.
Also, my voice is just feeling worn out lately. We have been singing a lot over the past few days. In fact, before Saturday's performance, we had a very long warmup, going through a few of the pieces in their entirety multiple times, singing them a bit faster and louder than usual. After the second service today, some other members of the group commented that their voices were feeling worn out as well.
While visiting firecat and her OH last night, I mentioned the problems I was having with the solo. She asked me if I was still taking voice lessons. (I used to while living in LA; my voice teacher is the director of Angel City Chorale.) I haven't had any voice lessons since moving back to the SF bay area ten years ago. I've thought about taking voice lessons again, but I don't think I can fit it in with everything else that's going on right now. But perhaps I need to start taking voice lessons again since I have all of these solos now. (If I were to do that, I might have to drop piano lessons, because I don't think I have time for both, especially when it comes to practice time. I used to practice singing about a hour a day, and I'm up to about two hours a day of piano. Plus I still need to reserve time for exercise, learning French, looking for work, reviewing math/CS stuff, etc.)