It wouldn't be productive to spend a lot of time going into the details. However, there is one thing that has been on my mind lately. I feel like even though I still have a job, I have lost out, career-wise, in comparison with many of my peers. I have not had the opportunity to be promoted, or to at least be put in a position where I exercise more control over my situation, in the sense that there is an obvious division of responsibility between my work and the work of others who I depend upon. I think that other engineers at my company are in a much better position in that regard, and have a lot more opportunities to succeed than I do. Basically, I feel like I am stuck holding things together, instead of moving forward.
I'd write more, but as I said, it would not be productive. I just have to try to gain satisfaction out of the non-career aspects of my life.